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It's raining here...I appreciate the gentleness and solitude a rainy day provides..went to get my usual from Latteland during my afternoon stroll..mmmmm...love white mochas. It's funny, while I've persuaded many friends and family members to give up bad habits and adapt healthier lifestyles, I've yet to let go of my daily jump start of caffeine. Oh well..we all have our weaknesses, guess white mochas with lots of whip cream (PLEASE!) are mine.  Every girl needs to indulge a lil' bit...

WHOA, I just realized it's March...almost time for St. Patty's Day (my 2nd fav holiday!) and this year is sure to be quite the celebration. I'm excited for all of my friends coming in from out-of-town. I love visitors and having company!  Also, graduation in May is quickly approaching..Yikesbee!  I am feeling all sorts of emotions as this big day approaches. It's definitely a momentous occasion, (more for the family and friends, who have been supporting me to get to this day) but one that I've been slightly apprehensive about. I don't even know why, maybe the idea of "officially" having to be an adult.  I mean I guess in many ways I've been functioning as an "adult" for a while now. I've been paying bills, maintaining a diligent and consistent work history, having semi-adult/serious/committed relationships and basically taking care of myself.

I think the older I get, the more I realize and value the people I've been blessed with in my life...some have come, some have gone, some have come back into my life again.  I've also realized the older I get the more spiritual I get, not necessarily religious, but spiritual.  I believe God or whomever reigns above us does actually have a plan and reason for me being here. I'm not going to let Him or Her down.

I guess that is my biggest fear--disappointing..I hate disappointing people more than anything and so I guess being the eternal optimist (yes, beneath the facade of cyncism there is an optimist) I believe that people will not disappoint me and when they do I lose a little bit of that which makes me hope and believe in others.